It feels crazy writing, not only in the new year - but in a new and improved book as well. There will be hidden truths amongst these lines and one day someone will get their hands on this and uncover them all - page by page - but until then, let me freely grace these pages with my deepest thoughts on life, love, and the limelight.
Today is January 1st 2012. The start of a new year and for many a new beginning as they aim for self-improvement.
New Year’s Day.
I’m spending mine on a greyhound bus honestly - I know, not too glamorous, but just how I wished to spend it after last night’s occurrences, aches & long shifts with my fellow insomniac angels.
Let’s see: I made a great new friend, bonded and interacted with new, interesting people, gained further knowledge on the concept of partying, was schooled (for lack of better words) on the love that is Techno; Experienced, yet again, another stellar night full of memories, laughs, first kisses, being free, countdowns & stories - Extreme emotions teeter-tottering come a change of a minute, waited on a Prince, then joined him and fellow royalty peers without even knowing. Made money - shared thoughts, exchanged numbers and most importantly… came out ALIVE!
My bringing in of the new year was certainly well spent and I am grateful - all I can say is that I love life. Everything it brings & everything it teaches. People are (always) just looking for an escape - Whether it be drugs, relationships, movies, music, sports, games or the obvious - Vacation. I became more aware of that very fact last night & come dawn. People, we, want and long for understanding - crave connection through disconnection - of purpose, of oneself, of others and more than anything of others of us. We search and dream of a genuine connection. Which is not impossible have most people found the common truth within themselves - Be understanding, then you too may be understood. It’s easier said than done of course, and surely will take practice as it is something one must steadily put to use to truly grasp and have become second-nature.
To think we were all born nonjudgmental and pure. Go back to that very piece of mind - dig deep to that mindset. There, and only there, will you find Love. Love within yourself for improvement, bettering yourself in order to benefit others. The more you search - the more you will find that less judgment brings forth more love & respect.
In the past couple weeks or so, I’ve been really keen on attempting to follow my own advice - as I’d hate to be hypocritical & not practice what I preach - and have found this to be true: People love the idea of love, yet fear the power of hate. Through pain - of heart & of sound mind - love is lost; the desire and want is then in fact grounded and guarded - heavily, whether it be with or through mannerisms, character or approach. Hurt people, hurt people - yet love, loves all love. Then you can bring about that even hate, hates all hate (naturally, as it is not something that is brought about with joy, yet something in which is created but can not or most do not know how to stop), and only those whom are in pain or despair hurt others, as those with peace can only bring about that in which they possess.
A gun is not aimed by the weapon itself, and the trigger may only be pulled by man himself alone. Don’t blame the world, this past (previous) year, nor others’ (doings) around you for what you are going through - because you, and you alone, are the defendant in your own case and have failed to admit guilt. Take reign, claim responsibility and stand by your actions. Everything and everyone in your life right now you have attracted, and if incorrect - you have let remain there at the very least.
Rid yourself of all evil - thoughts, actions, people - anything and everything in which you yourself have created or allowed. Rid yourself of all things negative and the positive will come. In Due Time. Love all, free all. Spread Love & Be Love.